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Well I turn 29 this weekend, still alive. Somehow I am co-managing though it does not feel like it, then there is a possibility I manage the team. So first I avoided being a yuppie, ended up at an investment bank, then I wanted to just do a job not work long hours, now I work ten hour days all year around and do not take all my vacation time. Then I said I would never work from home, but now look forward to getting stuff done on weekends from my study.
Then the people I didn't like at the job went one by one, so why do I want to quit? Cause its driving me fucking crazy to work, and store all this information, always be behind, rarely get thanked, and then get in trouble for others mistakes, every day, constantly! All while telling people and helping people who rarely pay you back....with a wage tied more to luck and politics then real work. Only to come home from your commute to groups of roaming teenagers with attitude, dressed better than you, and ruling your neighborhood. Yes we are slaves. Because for all our worry and money, the underclass gets everything free or steals it from us like we are fools, cause our politicians craft laws that has put so much focus on criminals.
For example, today I read an article about a 37 year old woman with cancer, who is struggling to pay medical bills. I think of the fact she is only 37 and suffering cancer for no reason. So point one, no god, what good nice smart lovely god would do that to a person, i have seen my relatives die of cancer, I have yet to see god to spit in his face.
So this poor woman, is suffering, yet nobody helps her. However, get yourself a criminal that has 153 arrests over twenty years, has robbed peoples homes, and then rapes a woman, and we agonize over the case. Ok its very hard proving things because time is elusive, but when we do find the person, we spend so much time agonizing over punishment? Well if innocent people suffer and can die of cancer without a care, why focus so much on the poor animals that never developed higher cognitive abilities? You know why? Cause the system is inept. Let me put it to you this way, a 37 year old woman suffers and dies in Iowa of cancer nobody does anything. Kim Jon Ill, Stalin, Pol Pot, Papa Doc Duvalier....Gee can't kill them. Or misolivic, oh how we dragged out that trial. Who cares, kill them, painfully and quickly, because when they die, others live...but when a nobody dies for no reason, nobody cares...why care though for somebodies who cause misery millions of time over, it just beats the shit out of me?
Because life is not about god or purpose or meaning. Life is not about love, its about sensing things and experience, pre programed sensing and experiencing.....so maybe life is an illusion. Never happy, never content, always afraid....and creating immaterial bonds like family and marriage.
Often times people can not rectify the simple and obvious, because we are all obscured by clouds as pink floyd would say, but those are the clouds of immaterial complications that blur our view.
So the next time you think global warming, george bush in the white house, or why people so young get cancer, remember we are outnumbered by ignorance, and most things are as easy as you think and observable. You know most of the drug use and problems I see with people with everything. Like Britney Spears or Victoria Beckham these side show freaks they haul out and tell us we should be.
Its interesting though that they all seem to be trying to be something as well. We all our acting our way cause the truth is none of us KNOWS anything. That's why I fear the preacher who talks to god and the ignorant teenage thug. Both share something in common, not knowing a fucking thing, but acting out anyways. The man of god ignores rational, observable evidence and common sense, the ignorant teen lacks common sense and rationalism, both destroy, and both are stupid, and the degree of human stupidity is shocking.
Each day is the same, we just go on different paths and do some different things to make it all seem random. I have travelled though, and I can tell you, the media focuses on ignorance and hell holes, but pot is legalized and amsterdamn is one of the nicest cities I been too.
At 29 you get so tired of the lies, so tired of seeing things unfold, its endless frustration, day after day. Like living in a society of children where you are the only adult but they control everything, that's what this is like. Yet I got whiskey and motorhead and halloween, go figure. There are such wonderful things in life, I just hope some dumb teenager decides not to prevent me from them, or god help him, i will pull out eyes and feed them to him, thats another thing i want to do to some ignorant sixteen year old hip hopper, but mayber when i turn 99.
Oh and I would like to give a shout out to the fact that Religion, mainly islam, but christianity, evangelicals and even judaism is a load of crap, bunch of lies, you want to apply morality, apply common sense you lying little nut cases. Belief is another word for unreal lie.
Then the people I didn't like at the job went one by one, so why do I want to quit? Cause its driving me fucking crazy to work, and store all this information, always be behind, rarely get thanked, and then get in trouble for others mistakes, every day, constantly! All while telling people and helping people who rarely pay you back....with a wage tied more to luck and politics then real work. Only to come home from your commute to groups of roaming teenagers with attitude, dressed better than you, and ruling your neighborhood. Yes we are slaves. Because for all our worry and money, the underclass gets everything free or steals it from us like we are fools, cause our politicians craft laws that has put so much focus on criminals.
For example, today I read an article about a 37 year old woman with cancer, who is struggling to pay medical bills. I think of the fact she is only 37 and suffering cancer for no reason. So point one, no god, what good nice smart lovely god would do that to a person, i have seen my relatives die of cancer, I have yet to see god to spit in his face.
So this poor woman, is suffering, yet nobody helps her. However, get yourself a criminal that has 153 arrests over twenty years, has robbed peoples homes, and then rapes a woman, and we agonize over the case. Ok its very hard proving things because time is elusive, but when we do find the person, we spend so much time agonizing over punishment? Well if innocent people suffer and can die of cancer without a care, why focus so much on the poor animals that never developed higher cognitive abilities? You know why? Cause the system is inept. Let me put it to you this way, a 37 year old woman suffers and dies in Iowa of cancer nobody does anything. Kim Jon Ill, Stalin, Pol Pot, Papa Doc Duvalier....Gee can't kill them. Or misolivic, oh how we dragged out that trial. Who cares, kill them, painfully and quickly, because when they die, others live...but when a nobody dies for no reason, nobody cares...why care though for somebodies who cause misery millions of time over, it just beats the shit out of me?
Because life is not about god or purpose or meaning. Life is not about love, its about sensing things and experience, pre programed sensing and experiencing.....so maybe life is an illusion. Never happy, never content, always afraid....and creating immaterial bonds like family and marriage.
Often times people can not rectify the simple and obvious, because we are all obscured by clouds as pink floyd would say, but those are the clouds of immaterial complications that blur our view.
So the next time you think global warming, george bush in the white house, or why people so young get cancer, remember we are outnumbered by ignorance, and most things are as easy as you think and observable. You know most of the drug use and problems I see with people with everything. Like Britney Spears or Victoria Beckham these side show freaks they haul out and tell us we should be.
Its interesting though that they all seem to be trying to be something as well. We all our acting our way cause the truth is none of us KNOWS anything. That's why I fear the preacher who talks to god and the ignorant teenage thug. Both share something in common, not knowing a fucking thing, but acting out anyways. The man of god ignores rational, observable evidence and common sense, the ignorant teen lacks common sense and rationalism, both destroy, and both are stupid, and the degree of human stupidity is shocking.
Each day is the same, we just go on different paths and do some different things to make it all seem random. I have travelled though, and I can tell you, the media focuses on ignorance and hell holes, but pot is legalized and amsterdamn is one of the nicest cities I been too.
At 29 you get so tired of the lies, so tired of seeing things unfold, its endless frustration, day after day. Like living in a society of children where you are the only adult but they control everything, that's what this is like. Yet I got whiskey and motorhead and halloween, go figure. There are such wonderful things in life, I just hope some dumb teenager decides not to prevent me from them, or god help him, i will pull out eyes and feed them to him, thats another thing i want to do to some ignorant sixteen year old hip hopper, but mayber when i turn 99.
Oh and I would like to give a shout out to the fact that Religion, mainly islam, but christianity, evangelicals and even judaism is a load of crap, bunch of lies, you want to apply morality, apply common sense you lying little nut cases. Belief is another word for unreal lie.
posted by Chuck Deggsy at 9:03 PM
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